Being present or living in the now is not always easy. We live in a society that loves being busy. It’s a world where people thrive on being more busy than the person beside them. They love being able to commiserate over the next dreaded activity. It’s a way to zap our energy and thus tap out our zest for life. I think we especially notice it more this time of year when we try to be more and more present with our families. It’s a time of year though that is also met with the hustle and bustle of holiday shopping. It’s a time that is met with needing to be in 5 places at once. It’s time for the church Christmas play or the community tree lighting ceremony. It’s time shopping. I’m here to tell you though that you don’t have to rush everywhere. You don’t have to spend the season spreading yourself too thin to enjoy it. You can be present in ways you never dreamed possible now and into the New Year.
Over this holiday season, I am choosing to practice being present. I’m taking a few minutes to realize that I don’t need to answer everything that comes to my cellphone right away. I’m not going to lie to you and tell you it’s not difficult. It is! It’s incredibly difficult to hear the ding of a phone that you’ve been chained to for years mostly due to work. It’s hard to acknowledge that some things just aren’t important. The little red circles that come up on my Iphone scream at me to do something to fix the clutter. I want to keep things neat and dealt with so that I don’t have to stress about it. Life doesn’t work that way though. Sometimes we’ll have clutter. We just have to let our brains accept the fact that it’s inevitable. We have to realize that we will get to it eventually if not right now.
This is why I’m taking 5 minutes to myself each day to just breathe and think. It’s why I’m working on posts like this for ya’ll. It allows me to sit back and read with my baby and not feel like the incessant noise around me is important. I am allowed to just relax. I am allowed to not worry about whether my social media posts went out to the world. Hell, I’m even allowed to skip a post. I hate doing that last one though. It does make me feel bad. I’m working on being better about getting things done in advance. I want to feel good about all aspects of my life and this blog. I want to be proud of what I present to you, and I am. I’m glad to be able to discuss things and send them out into the ether. I’m taking 5 minutes though each night to really just breathe and see what comes to me. I want these posts to be amazing. I want my time to be well spent. I want to be present in all aspects of it, and I know that if I’m 100% here when I’m here and 100% there when I’m there I’ll feel so much better. I’ll feel less overwhelmed. I’ll feel gleeful.
Last week, my husband and I hired a manny. He will be here to help me 8 hours a week, and I know that I’ll be able to be more present in this blogging aspect of my life. I’ll be able to menu plan as well. I’ll feel like there is less chaos in my life and more balance. I know that I’ll also feel a little bit bad. I know that I already feel slightly guilty for needing the help to get it all done, but I’m also trying to spend my 5 minutes of quiet releasing that energy. I’m trying to realize that I spent months trying to do it all, and I failed. We all need help sometimes. This is my time.
How are you attempting to be more present in your life? What do you need help on? How are you preparing for the holidays?